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We are not allowed to say that we are miserable

I tried fighting my depresseion many times. I have my fake smile that probably does not fool anyone, I have my weak jokes, usually at my own account, I mostly seclude in my apartment and don't go out almost ever. If I go among people I can only recognize how mentally bad I am, so I just avoid it. I might be wrong but possibly a lot of people feel like this. Pressing anxiety, along with my terrible health anxiety, joined with even more pressing depression, and seeing how far I am, or how far I feel, behind other people. In every aspect of life that counts. It's not allowed to say this. I tried joining online groups for people with depression and funny thing is, in these stupid groups, it's only allowed to surface complain, whine, but not too much. If you even try to say what's really on your mind, you are banned. How "funny" this is? I mean, really. The whole thing is a joke. People crying online, real people, crushed, and the "group" allowes them onl...
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Dylan Dog - my thoughts

I collect Dylan Dog comics. I really do. It started long time ago, when I was in my early 20s, I started buying this comic on regular basis, and collected it, issue by issue, book by book. It was really fun, horror series comics, usually coming out weekly or monthly, and I loved it. Yes, it was copying heavily from famous books and movies, some would say "not stealing, homage", but yes, there was a lot of "homage" from famous movies and novels, usually from 1970s, 1980s and later 1990s. Those were small, paperback books which were cheap and I could carry them anywhere with me. Episodes were mostly separate stories, which is a good thing because you are not forced to buy every single book and follow a story. there were some two-parts episodes but mostly, 1 story per book. And of course, I loved it! Most stories had usual format: pretty girl comes to Dylan and asks for help about somethig supernatural. He feels in love with her, sometimes she does not love him back bu...

How my cap (and me being always cold) saved me from being mugged

 When you walk down the streets in the middle of the day, sunshine, broad streets, you are walking fast and confident, the last thing you expect is that you can get mugged. Well, you would be wrong. I was walking, as I mentioned, middle of the day, 1 pm, sun blasting, middle of town, no crowds... sounds safe? No. One advice: do NOT, ever, wear backpack with zipper on your back, casually, or even a bag that is easy to open, and walk thinking nothing can happen. It can. Be aware 100% always. Once, years ago, someone snatched pretty expensive face serum directly from my bag, in the center of town, again broad daylight, people all around, and apparently, I learned nothing. I was lucky it was just that serum. But how did my cap (plain, acrylic, see photo bellow) saved me? Well, I was walking with backpack casually over my shoulder when I felt backpack moving. I turned around and there they were, two kids, maybe 13-14 or 15 years old, boy and a girl, directly behind me, with hands on my ...

Hope matters

People give a lot of power to money, influence, beauty, even just plain youth. People think when you have some of visible, society defined qualities, you have no chance of failing, you have something to fight for. Truth is, none of that matters without hope. Just plain hope. People underestimate hope. They underestimate dreams, goals, having vision of something that you strive to, that you see as goal, possibility. Take that away and you are creating misery. That goes for every single aspect in life. You can give someone a lot, you can try to be reassuring, you can tell them what you think they want to hear, you can be giving in various ways, but if you revoke the hope. if you null the future, if you say that anything they dream of will never be, that is all for nothing. You can apply this to any situation in life, jobs, hobbies, art, relationships, health.... it's is always the same. No matter what we do, no matter how we live or how we look, or how old we are, having hope is what...

I am invisible

I am invisible, but not in a sense people may think when someone says this phrase. When someone says they are invisible, they usually mean visually unremarkable, someone that blends in with a crowd that can be easily forgotten. Which is not necessarily a bad thing, if you ask me. While with aging (and I am approaching 54 this year), yes, sure I am becoming visually more and more "unremarkable" with each year, thanks to our social culture that for women only quality is her youth and looks (because we are not humans, see my other article about that topic), I think I am not quite there yet. I am still pretty recognizable, and if I want (but I usually don't) I can stand out in the crowd. But that's not what I mean by invisible. I am invisible as complete person, as personality with all the things I can do and I can offer. And I am pretty sure I am not the only one who feels like that. Unless you are rich, famous, ultra media-gorgeous, so talented that it's unique in t...

Some fun youtube channels to check

In no particular order:  GregBroDudeMan - Man watches videos and reacts. Plain and simple. Very genuine, very non-controversial, sweet and authentic. People love this Greg Bro dude man, because he appears to be genuinely non-problematic person which is rare on internet. Very cute, wholesome channel with reactions. Zaffy - Zaffy is masked man who fights crimes and bad movies and series. He is a pitch-black comedy character who sometimes get into really dark topics and does it quite well. He also makes a lot of weird but strangely authentic and smart theories about popular movies and tv series. Morgin DuPon t - absolute sweetie. I like her, smart, funny, down to Earth, but she sometimes seems very sad. On the bad side, she posts rarely and often deletes her videos. But I am keeping an eye on her. Luxeria - absolute riot! If you like brilliant and funny commentary videos, mostly on reality tv shows, this is a channel for you. Luxeria is funny and smart and very down to Earth. Her comm...

Some of the best series I've ever watched

In no particular order: Grace and Frankie     Most Hollywood movies and series, and Hollywood in general, just hates older people, especially old people. They present them as monsters, ugly, something to be scared of or disgusted by etc. They push them in the back as much as they can. This is a gem. Gorgeous Jane Fonda and cute and funny Lilly Tomlin are great comedy team that brings comedy to the top. Followed by other equally great actors, some of them terribly underrated (still), this show was sadly cancelled on cliffhanger, which is terrible injustice.      I love how it puts people over 70 in main roles and focuses on their lives and needs, their problems and comic as well as tragic moments. It's a great comedy with valuable real moments from life, and it doesn't back up topics that may be hard and still manages to deal with them with comedy and grace. Pity it was cancelled. But perfect from start to end. Arcane     Masterpiece of digital art. Ver...