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"Look at the photo of this young woman next to photo of old woman" - shows photo of young girl of maybe 19-25 with model-like features, so not really someone you can spot on the streets. Sometimes, lately more often, it's AI generated image or illustration because such perfect face (in eyes of society beauty standards only, of course) does not exist. But a lot of times it's a photo of young model. Next to that photo is a photo of usually beautiful middle aged woman, or, as a more contrast, photo of very old woman (it's NEVER a photo of men, because they don't age at all, right?), with wrinkles, saggy skin and everything today considered "yuck" or unwanted. It doesn't matter if the photo is of beautiful middle-aged woman or very old woman over 80, statement is usually the same: "look at the photo of youth on the left, it's upside down triangle shaped, it has V shaped jaw, big eyes with outer corners higher than inner, lifted full mouth an...

I've seen and heard many times how influencers and celebrities complained that they have problems with mean comments, rude remarks about their looks, even really evil things they hear about themselves, especially in media. But, honestly, they are not alone. They are just more exposed than the rest of us. There are people who love to bully someone, anyone, providing they can get away with that safely, and they will do that to anyone. And "to anyone" means to someone who can not fight back or hurt them in any way, because bullies are cowards. Usual "targets" are women, or men who can't or won't fight back, people who don't have friends or family to defend them, easy targets to say it shortly. If not that, internet has made things for bullies so much easier. Now they can bully literally anyone online and get away with it. They can even form a mob, so they can do that in groups. Since I do not have that bully mentality I really don't understand what...

 Over next weeks I am going to give my best to erase most traces of me from the internet, especially social media. I may leave some account deactivated while I decide what to do with them, as I worked a lot on them, and I can't remove my novel from Amazon, and other sites that have my name on it, but as much as I can remove, I will remove. I want googling my name to return as less as possible. I am going away. I want to erase as much traces of me as I can. Maybe I will remove my novel and other novels I put online too, I am still not sure about this but I am thinking of it. No one reads them anyway. Going off the grid is not finished with social media and internet, I am going off in real life too, as much as possible. I am done with most of humanity. I had my fair share of crap received from people, insults, being hurt, being misunderstood, people who hate me but have no fucking idea who I am, rude people, people who want to use me and pretend it's good deed, people who attack ...

 I have few sites I visit on regular basis. I am not much on social media. I gave up Facebook, I deleted Reddit almost immediately, I removed Twitter after just few months, I didn't even try with Youtube... I don't know how people even manage to stay on these social media sites and participate every day in so many debates, many of them toxic, meaningless and damaging. Facebook - I wasn't ever bullied on FB honestly, but every day on my wall, there were so many opinions, most of them so negative, so unforgiving, some hateful, some just depressing, some sad... So many bad news, paranoia, so many sad, sad news, so much loneliness, so much scary things in this world. I am an empath, I just couldn't deal with that anymore. I feel like sensible and young people are bombarded with these things on FB every day, and that is scary. Reddit - is unforgiving. I made some stupid joke, almost immediately I was "canceled", I got really rude comments and insults, straight hars...