Oldies, when I used to paint in Photoshop (circa 2010)

 

Cry for Help for Serbia, people, nature and animals

 I believe everyone knows about "Rio Tinto" affair by now. This is blacklisted, notorious company that leaves nothing but misery, destruction and bare land after they do their "work". Serbia is beautiful country with beautiful nature, lands, forests and rivers, with good people living in villages, who make sensationally good food, cheese, pastries, bread, home made jams, canned fruits and vegetables, various beautiful clothing etc. These areas are still covered with green forests and green hills, lots of animals, cleat air and rivers. Our government just sold us all and designated one large green area for this worst global pollution, lithium mines, using acids and chemicals which will make the whole area inhabitable, poisonous and toxic, it will make this into grey desert.

Not only that, but people who live in the are are FORCED to leave by their taxes that were "suddenly" sky high because they happen to live, for decades or centuries now, on newly declared "building site". They can't pay those taxes and they are forced to sell their own land for little money and move. This is pure exploatation and bullying people into losing everything, into misery, poverty, and losing their homes their ancestors left them. And for what? For a DESTRUCTION of nature and pollution, for lithium that we will never use or purchase, for company that doesn't give a shit about us and none of us here will have any use of it We will be dying decades and centuries after this from pollution, lack of clean air, water, animals will die in the area and pollution will not spare other European countries! It will reach Bulgaria, Romania, Republika Srpska, later Croatia, Greece, and spread all over Europe.

We have all been sold, for money! For few ugly people who will take some stupid money to live nicely while we all here die and pollution in Europe reaches its critical point.

We don't need this! We don't need lithium that badly. No one needs this. Only rich people need this. We don't.

Whole Europe will suffer at one point. Nature will suffer. Please, anyone help stop this abomination!

Life could be, should be great

 Most people today are miserable. Even people you see on Instagram and other social networks looking like they own the world, in best hotels, smiling in bed over the fancy meal, looking like beautiful paintings, they are mostly if not all, miserable. It's the set up. It takes hundreds of photos to get a good one, the lovely looking meal is usually not real or not being eaten, hotel room is costly and most photos don't look that good. It's nice to believe in myth there is such ideal life, and to believe, if we are just beautiful enough, slim enough, if we could get enough money and followers, we could be happy too. But would we?

Now, the large percent of people don't have Instagram life, real or faked, we live in our tiny apartments, or larger apartments, no difference, we go to work, we sleep and eat, and life is just passing by. Some think, van life, life off the grid is the answer. It might be, or maybe not. Problem is, we are not all the same, there is no the same solution for everyone. Some may love life in van, traveling, being mobile, uncertain, maybe "free", some might just hate it. There is no universal recipe for happiness. But one thing is for sure, vast majority of people today are quite unhappy, me included. But why?

Life could be great. Life HAS TO be great! We only live once, we should appreciate every pain free day, every day we have clothes, food, friends or support, sun, air, some form of independence... isn't that all privilege? But no. I see everyday people miserable, sad, tired, no hope left, no single sparkle in eyes left, dead inside, or angry, pissed, looking for reason to hate, to point fingers... Just look at this situation now. People hate each other based on stupid vaccination status! They, media, politicians, rich people, whoever I don't give a shit, made us hate each other based on something this stupid. But there are other things too. People hate each other based on social status, looks, sexual preferences, nationality, religion, gender, political views, because they "just don't like your face", because you walk or talk weirdly, because you are different in any bloody way, there are million reasons to hate. And to love? Being beautiful, young, successful, positive and fun. But even that is not guarantee. To be loved you have to make all of them happy, to be what they want you to be, and you? Who cares how you feel!

Look around. We live in smelly, polluted cities, we rush to work, we wear masks, we wear ugly dark, sad clothes, we have long sad faces, we are bloody miserable! And what happened to this lovely, wonderful thing called nature, we are destroying so fast? Nature does not exclude civilization or cities, it can go together.

who cares about this when we can watch news and hate each other for whatever they tell us to hate. Or we can cry and feel ugly and poor over some Instagram account. Or we can be trapped in concrete inside of some town which used to be beautiful but government is turning it into sad concrete, factories and malls and money because they don't give fucking shit and they need "budget".

What happened to natural human beauty? To people being beautiful because they bloody are, inside and out, without surgeons and media telling us we need to look forever 22 and what is ugly on our natural features. Look at people, they are gorgeous, just when they are not angry, violent or trying to be perfect paintings.

We could all be happy, we have food, so much food is wasted, destroyed for various, mostly political reasons, so much useful things, clothes, furniture, also destroyed meaninglessly, so much destruction, anger, and we could have everything we need.
 

Why do you hate? Why are you angry? Why are you sad? What are we all missing?

More places I'd love to visit

Moscow

First of all, I would love to visit Russia, at least once in my life (so far, no such luck), but Moscow is on my top list of cities to visit. It looks like you are in fairytale! That architecture is just amazing. And I am a bit of a sucker for Russian candies and cakes. Who knows how many things could amaze me there!

Sindey

Never ever been to Australia, but I would love to! Apart from my fear of giant spiders and snakes, I would still love to visit great city of Sidney. Now, who wouldn't? It looks so alive and I bet it has great food and great beaches. Sadly, given how things are now, this will not happen soon.

Oslo

Norway is always mentioned as greatest country to live in. I bet it is. I am not great fan of winter and
very short daylights but for a visit to Norway I would get over it. Oslo looks like a city worth visiting for longer time, if I am lucky (very lucky) even staying and living in it. It looks just so friendly, like you can have a really nice life there.

Amalfi, Italy

I feel in love with Amalfi first time I saw some photos of this lovely little town in the south of Italy years ago! I planned and planned to have a summer Vacation in there, but it never happened. I can't find exact photos I saw and felt instant love, so here are some that are not that cozy, but are still damn amazing. Photos I saw were of an incredibly beautiful street with lovely markets, sun, lots of green and I just couldn't stop looking at them. Amalfi, I hope to be there one day! I hope I'd live there one day!

Pamukkale, Turkey

I know, I know, this is a tourist trap, and I have been to Turkey many times and I always loved it. Turkey is special, I was always finding something new and amazing, and those sweets! Sea and beaches are just absolutely unforgettable, food is great, people are so nice, I saw such lovely houses and buildings, architecture and art is just incredible, and of course, cats, cats everywhere.

Still, I never took time to see Pamukkale and I regret that now. Always thought "there will be time". But now, well.. I still hope.

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Places in the world I would love to visit

 I didn't travel much. There are some reasons why it is like that, I am single mom, not enough money, not enough Vacation days to go really far, flights are expensive, I have cats and one of them has extensive fear of living the apartment, and now there is this virus... mostly those things. But life is short and some recent health scares reminded me of that. I have no idea how much I have left, maybe 20 years, maybe 2, maybe it's months. How much of that is quality life? We have to live in the moment, so why is that so hard?

There are many places I would like to visit. If I had time/money/opportunities I would like to see every piece of this world, no exceptions. So what would be interesting on the top of my head?

This list is not final, but if I had a bucket list, these would be like first to come in mind:

Tokyo

of course I would love to visit Tokyo! It looks so different than any city or country I have ever been to. And it has so many interesting things to see, experience, feel, food to try, places to visit.

Seoul

I read so many Korean comics, I just love them! I love Korean culture, I would like to try food, to walk the streets, to shop for famous cosmetics, to talk to people... everything!

London

Oh city of diversity, city of so many famous culture phenomenon, so many famous tv series and characters we all love, British humor, famous pubs, street food of every single nation, so many things to see!

New York

Does this even need explanation? Live city that has everything, interesting, fast, full of energy. I want to breathe the air of New York at least once in my life.

Bali

Well, duh!

Beijing

Of course, Beijing, culture, art, food, beautiful city, tradition, lovely country! Just look at these green areas, this lovely art, everything in this city is art!

Singapore

Honestly, every photo I have seen of Singapore is just breath taking!

Barcelona

Spain, place where I would like to live! I would happily learn Spanish if there is any chance for me to live in this beautiful country. I heard that food is amazing, people are warm and friendly, weather is beautiful and warm, and it looks just dreamy.

How we lived before internet and social networks

 There was a time back then, when I was 19, 20, 25... back back in the '90s. It was different times, so much different than now. I can see that because I was there, and I am here now. I am not young anymore for long time and I can't even imagine how it is to be born right into the world of social media, internet, hundreds of channels on cable, Netflix, Hulu, reality shows, everyone's opinion online, everyone's life online, every single opinion out in the open... so much information, so many things, so so much of it right into your brain since you were born.

Yes, internet, electronic media and social networks can seem like a great things that make life so much easier, but now, everything about everyone is out in the open. Your life is in the open, and what is worse, your lie is worth nothing. You are just a number, a small human in the sea of 7 billion other humans, and only lives that are "worth" (not really but you know what I mean) is rich, super rich people and people who have real power. Maybe celebrities? The rest of us are just sheep to them. We are source of their money and power, their meat for wars, their "likes" for their news and their orders how we should all live to make their lives even better. I know I sound like a foil hat weirdo but honestly, aren't we? Can you say you are not?

Maybe it was like that before, probably yes to certain point, but God, we were so blissfully unaware of that! We had two or three freaking channels on TV and we watched tv when there was a good movie on or hardly ever. We had paper documents. We received salaries on hand in envelope. We were outside. No one had android or even cell phone. We had to meet and know people in real life. We could go out and talk, have fun, parties, with no one ever watching their phone, or taking photos. We just enjoyed the moment, no one bothered to take picture of it or paste it somewhere pubic for others to see. We had fun, and we weren't missing anything to have that fun. No realities, no tv shows, no social media to compete, just fun.

No one cared to look super polished, with amazing body and impossible face features that resemble dolls. No one cared that much about make up or hair style, or clothe brands. We wore whatever we wanted, we had natural hair, some dyed it mostly at home, some wore crazy bold make up, we were beautiful, we knew it and we didn't have beauty standards of body and face we felt obliged to follow. Sure, there were super models at the time, but they were totally natural great genes beauties, and we admired their beauties, we had their posters, we copied their hair or clothes sometimes, but we didn't try to be them! We didn't think we are ugly comparing ourselves to super models.

We had pop idols who had genuine charisma, who could be caught by photographers looking cool and relaxed at any time, people who had work and talent behind them. Now, it's just a factory of young teens, with tons of stylists, writers, choreographers, personal photographers, make up artists and super styled unreal photos with army of people who watch them and praise or bully them.

Once upon a time people actually had to meet in person. There were no dating sites, so you had to invest some charm, courage and social skills to meet friends and date. there were problematic things, sure, but there are now too.

In my country, we had wars at the time, we had super inflation, we had no money, we were poor, but we did have hope, we did have joy, we did have innocence still. This today is not life anymore. Now it's time to contact my home planet and get the heck out of here.