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I tried fighting my depresseion many times. I have my fake smile that probably does not fool anyone, I have my weak jokes, usually at my own account, I mostly seclude in my apartment and don't go out almost ever. If I go among people I can only recognize how mentally bad I am, so I just avoid it. I might be wrong but possibly a lot of people feel like this. Pressing anxiety, along with my terrible health anxiety, joined with even more pressing depression, and seeing how far I am, or how far I feel, behind other people. In every aspect of life that counts. It's not allowed to say this. I tried joining online groups for people with depression and funny thing is, in these stupid groups, it's only allowed to surface complain, whine, but not too much. If you even try to say what's really on your mind, you are banned. How "funny" this is? I mean, really. The whole thing is a joke. People crying online, real people, crushed, and the "group" allowes them onl...

I collect Dylan Dog comics. I really do. It started long time ago, when I was in my early 20s, I started buying this comic on regular basis, and collected it, issue by issue, book by book. It was really fun, horror series comics, usually coming out weekly or monthly, and I loved it. Yes, it was copying heavily from famous books and movies, some would say "not stealing, homage", but yes, there was a lot of "homage" from famous movies and novels, usually from 1970s, 1980s and later 1990s. Those were small, paperback books which were cheap and I could carry them anywhere with me. Episodes were mostly separate stories, which is a good thing because you are not forced to buy every single book and follow a story. there were some two-parts episodes but mostly, 1 story per book. And of course, I loved it! Most stories had usual format: pretty girl comes to Dylan and asks for help about somethig supernatural. He feels in love with her, sometimes she does not love him back bu...

 When you walk down the streets in the middle of the day, sunshine, broad streets, you are walking fast and confident, the last thing you expect is that you can get mugged. Well, you would be wrong. I was walking, as I mentioned, middle of the day, 1 pm, sun blasting, middle of town, no crowds... sounds safe? No. One advice: do NOT, ever, wear backpack with zipper on your back, casually, or even a bag that is easy to open, and walk thinking nothing can happen. It can. Be aware 100% always. Once, years ago, someone snatched pretty expensive face serum directly from my bag, in the center of town, again broad daylight, people all around, and apparently, I learned nothing. I was lucky it was just that serum. But how did my cap (plain, acrylic, see photo bellow) saved me? Well, I was walking with backpack casually over my shoulder when I felt backpack moving. I turned around and there they were, two kids, maybe 13-14 or 15 years old, boy and a girl, directly behind me, with hands on my ...